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updated: oct2005
well, since i changed the whole layout of this blog, i might as well update all the information here. yeahh. the last time i updated tis profile is one year backk. time flies. its alrd 2005. basically wad im gonna write here is how i view myself. my opinions. andd i noe different ppl have different point of views. therefore, wad u tink of me might not be wad i tink of myself. any comments welcome. deres no right or wrong cause im also discovering my own personality, character each and every dayy of my life. cheers.
throughout my 17plus years, i've learnt alot. during those younger days, i used to have that mentality dat i've grown up. im matured and not dat childish anymore. come to think abt it, quite silly. cause no one can ever stop growing. ever minute every moment of our life we're going through different phrases. the process of growing, dats wad its all abt aint it? andd no matter how matured one can be, dere's always a tiny bitsy of childishness borned in us. i guess i do have my own side of childishness at times too.
most of the times im a chatterbox. gossiping, crapping, laming ard. yet dere's also times where i preferred quiet moments by myself. always the happy-go-lucky gal in ppl's mindset. laughing like nobody's business. acts like a crazyy idiot when having fun. but, when serious, im real SERIOUS. yeahh. andd im quite an observant too. call it kayypoh or wad. its in me. hahaa. im quite a direct person when it comes to dealing wid certain matters.
a gal who keeps almost everyting to herself. dont know whyy but it seems difficult for me to bare my heart out to anyone. maybe its because im scaredd, because i thot other people wouldnt be interested, or its just because i dont wana bother people wid my stuffs. any one factor would contribute to my so-not-trusting behavior towards others. even if i trusted, any lies might take the trust awayy very easilyy. andd trust once lost, might never even be regained again. its hard to trust one who've lied to you, who've hurted you.
seldom hate people. the most is dislike onlyy. yet in those cases wher i really do hate, i dun do those hurting stuffs like spreading rumors or wadever shitt abt the person. cause to me, hate is totally ignoring the person. its just like the person nv came into my life. at all.
relationship wise, dont really have any experience. a very very sensitive gal. thinks alot. sometimes wayy too much. fairytales are made-beliefs. yet, i chose to believe in fairytales. one dayy, my fairytale will come..
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Friday, August 13, 2004
todae went skool kinda latee.. reach a lil earlier onli.. cuz i overslept.. lolx.. expected de.. cuzz i slept at 2plus am yest nitee.. sighz.. do the accounting n revise on my computing maths.. sianzz.. todae de computing maths.. i duno can make it anot.. though the tutor gt gif us last min impt revision.. i HOPE i can pass.. yeapz.. reali hope soo ar.. seems lyk im slacking soo much.. i hate tis.. shuacks.. den the accounting make-up tutorial todae.. okiez lo.. hehe.. cuz i stil understand ma.. todae reali tiring sia.. u noe hor.. we gt 5hrs of continueous studying.. omg~~ lol.. bt lucky i stil survive it through.. heez.. den after all the studying.. *finally over*
i went hm.. den mit yuxian at 7plus.. we go shop shop for our klassmate de bday prezzy.. yupp.. go yishun.. bt dere gt nth to shop de.. <<wat a great idea xian gif for shoppin bday prezzy..LOL>> abt 9pm lyk tat.. we change location.. cuz reali nth dere for us to buy.. we went causeway pt.. well.. when we reached dere.. it was lyk almost closing time for the shopss.. haha.. wasted trip dere.. we went kFc.. eat eat tok ard.. ben msg me lor.. kip asking me go watch the twins effect 2 wid him tis weekend.. i dun wan ma.. i dun lyk to go out alone wid guyss de.. xian oso noe.. ya.. den yest ben oso gt msg me.. i toe him im studying lor.. he jus continue msging.. haiz.. i was pissed off.. cant reali concentrate.. sianzz..
i haven started lookin for my biz comm icA2 de info.. the speech one.. sighz.. i gt the topic ::3 unusual phobias:: duno hw to do ar.. im sooo scared~~ i gt phobia of ppl.. *HELP me* lolx.. hmm.. den the test result for the it1505 quiz.. guess i failed.. cuz i nv study.. den the tutor say many did badly.. haiz.. sad ar.. hope i dun fail too badly ba.. n for the accounting test.. haven get back oso.. i duno hw i did wor.. so worried.. the tutor nv even mentioned abt meee regarding my test.. omg~~ next week gona hv alot of test.. 3 i tink.. mus buck up le.. dun wana fail anymore testsss.. dun feel gd when i fail.. kk la.. i gtg slp le.. yest too late slp.. so todae side effects.. eyelids closing soon.. haHaz.. -peace outz-
Posted at 8/13/2004 11:29:22 pm by imperfect
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Thursday, August 12, 2004
xuan + xian = lameeee **lol**
hmm.. todae i gt back my biz comm de test.. tat icA1.. sianzz.. i gt 34/50 niaz.. so lil.. bt nvm la.. at least i pass.. hmm.. todae was alrite.. he nt tat quiet le.. lolx.. =p.. den.. frenship wid samuel is lyk shiet.. we DUN tok to each other at all.. den he now dun cum near us liaoz.. klassmate till liddat.. i oso duno la.. im nt wrong.. n i wun tok to him first.. im tat stubborn de if ya noe meee.. soo now me n xian go eat two person two person de lo..
haHaz.. i reali canot tahan xian n me.. we're crazzieeee~~ *LOL.. canot dun admit lehzz.. u noe hor.. we two is jus sooo sooo lamee.. we say we're gona join the SIT organise de bandoutz.. [dun take tis seriously..cuz we're onli joking.. =p] we two r twins.. u noe the TWINS? starring in twins effect de.. HAHAz.. den we say we're gona sing the ::xia yi zhan tian hou:: lolz.. lame siaz.. den twins ma.. she say everyting oso mus b the same.. lol.. say if lecturer calls me.. she mus stand up oso.. haHahaz.. den we create a trademark sign for ourselves todae.. its darn funny~~ c liaoz wil luff lyk mad de.. lol.. lol.. anyway.. we're jus being lamee la.. ppl readin my blog pls heck care us.. haHaz.. dun anyhw tel ppl.. if nt our image goneeee.. *heez*
hmm.. cant continue more abt our lameness.. cuz tmr gt computing maths de test.. i MUS pass.. sighz.. duno alot of tingss.. gotta go buck up le.. anyway.. samuel jus msg me.. say tat hes sorie.. for his behavior.. haiz.. forget it ba.. over anyway.. ciaoz for nw.. i wana study~~ -peace outzz-
Posted at 8/12/2004 10:21:40 pm by imperfect
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Wednesday, August 11, 2004
well.. todae lesson started at 12pm for me.. cuz the morn tutorials r cancelled.. yupp.. met yuxian 10am at skool.. actually wana study de.. bt din.. cuz we tok too much.. lolx.. den saw **.. sighz.. hes lyk soo quiet tis days.. duno why.. sumting is definately wrong.. hes nt being his usual self.. i dunch noe whyz.. n tis is definately bothering me.. upsetting me.. sigh.. during the lohchuyi makeup lesson.. xian asked if im alrite.. i asked her.. do i look as if im nt alrite..? she say ya.. n i jus kept quiet.. mayb.. after all the make up lessons.. me went amk centre wid xian n jenny.. we took bus 86.. walked to the bus-stop..saw him dere.. he saw me.. i saw him.. he turned away.. we went amk.. den to yishun.. xian ask me stil lyk him izit.. i duno wat to say.. sighz..
*eddie came n cheer me up when he saw my msn nick.. soo swit of him.. thanx.. i reali appreciate wat he did.. touched.. sumtimes.. its jus soo comforting to noe tat i hv frens tat CARE.. i luv them..*
- everytime i try to hide..
- it seems so futile..
- the feeling stil cums back to me..
- hurting me..
- n the tears jus wouldnt stop flowing..
Posted at 8/11/2004 7:50:42 pm by imperfect
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Tuesday, August 10, 2004
Posted at 8/10/2004 10:43:29 pm by imperfect
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tired liaoz.. mentally n physically.. haizz.. duno y la.. yest go steamboat.. okay lo.. nt bad la.. jus abit too tiring when i gt home.. ya..
todae.. went shoppin for luqing prezzy.. sianzz.. bt in the end we gt a cap for him.. ya.. lucky sia.. if nt.. still mus crack brains for his prezzy.. sighz.. me n hippo tok abt lianxin.. im so upset wid her.. she changed so much.. n ya.. shes forever so naive.. im sooo worried abt her frankly speaking.. jus tat i dun wana nagg at her.. i dun wan~~ i dun wan to let her tink im irritating.. yeapz.. tok abt her til my tears almost fell.. imagine i was once soo close wid her.. ya.. hurts me soo much.. den at nite.. she came.. well.. i tok wid her lo.. awhilez.. miss her soo much.. she looks as though shes the samee as b4.. stil de same old lianxin.. bt.. in reality.. has she changed..? im so disappointed wid her.. reali reali disappointed.. so concern abt her.. bt she doesnt even noe.. it hurts..
*tinking back of the times..
*i realised i hv cum tis far..
*i feel soo sucky abt myself at times..
*onli to find myself being so useless n helpless..
*deres reali nth much i can do..
*bt to accept tis ugly real me..
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~ im nt the kinda gal other ppl tink im..
~ i jus hope..
~ ppl wun malign me..
~ for being a person tat im nt..
^ thanx keying.. i reali lurve the star tingy.. yupp~ i wil hang it on my hp de.. always~ yeapz.. miss ya lotss..^
Posted at 8/10/2004 10:22:20 pm by imperfect
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Monday, August 09, 2004
hmm.. todae woke up at 12pm lo.. haHa.. tired.. dun wana get up de.. bt den bo bianz.. cuz my daddy.. ask me to hv my lunch.. yupp.. after lunch.. wash my clothings le i online awhile lorz.. tok to weifeng abit.. he go slp.. den i rest on the bed.. fell asleep.. ohh man.. reali does seems lyk a pigg nw.. lol.. 5plus.. hanbin called my hp.. ask me get up.. canot slp.. mus go down play bball wid them.. no choice lor.. kana wake up.. hee.. go down play awhile den go hv dinner wid hippo.. after tat tok tok n tok.. haHaz.. *secrets secretss*
at nite.. stil de sameee.. boring yeas.. haha.. lianming jio steamboat tmr.. ya.. so tmr noonz i meetin yuxian for our marketing de group work.. den mit lianming tat gang for steamboat.. *lol* sure wil hv lotsa fun again.. cuz everytime we go marina dere hv steamboat.. always ended up soo fun.. so funny.. lots n lots of jokes de.. hehe.. tmr tmr tmr..
*keying - gal.. thanx for the concern u showered me.. yeapz.. reali appreciate it.. im fine.. though i always dun mean it.. n u noe tis.. anyway.. take lotsa care wor~ miss ya.. *
*irene - longg time no c u oso.. go outz together lehzz.. i miss the lil short hair irene who is becuming more n more femaine.. heez.. *
Posted at 8/9/2004 12:46:36 am by imperfect
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Thursday, August 05, 2004
i nid to sort tings out.. *i hate myself~* duno y.. haiz.. sad sad sad.. ~>.<~
Posted at 8/5/2004 11:55:33 pm by imperfect
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Tuesday, August 03, 2004
todae xian toe me tat yest bobby ask her a qn.. bobby asked if i lyk ian.. xian toe him no.. den tink bobby toe ian ba.. cuz ian msg xian in msn.. ya.. sigh.. feel as though im soo bad.. cuz ian reali treats me quite gd de.. he always helps me when i nided his help.. a reali nice guy.. yet i stil hurt him.. soo much.. soo much.. i duno hw to face him.. looks lyk ive let him down.. im jus so so sorie.. bt i guess a lil sorie cant help much ba.. i duno wat to do.. tel me plsss.. *s.h.a.t.t.e.r.e.d*
wk keepin callin my hp during computing maths lecture.. haha.. so funny la him.. stil dare say tat im from the crazy grp.. -.-" he oso ar.. same grp as me de.. i dun care.. lol.. he kip sayin tat his fren last time wana get my n.o.. den say his fren mayb lyk me.. oMg~~ haha.. he tink too much la.. hw cld his fren lyk me.. yupp.. den hor tat weifeng.. kip callin me pig sia.. kaozz.. im nt okay~~ though i lyk to slp alot la.. lolx..
hmm.. actually todae mood was alrite one.. all the way.. bt den after the computing maths.. drastic moodswing.. haiz.. duno y oso.. bt den i stil pretended tat everyting was alrite.. fake.. until i was alone in my rm.. i visited the sad sad webby again.. the one abt a love story de.. v.v long story yeas.. its jus soo sad.. ppls who wana read can go in c c.. i cant gurantee tat u'll cry readin it.. bt i can guarantee for sure u'll b touched~~ if nt touched by the story.. den mayb u're sumone who hv no feelings ba.. cuz its reali touching.. yeapz.. me cry too.. *tears* the song is soo nicee too.. saddd.. jus rite for the webby.. -nice one-
++ sianzz.. tmr stil hv accounts test.. hope i can pass.. yeaps.. haiz.. ++
the sad love story.. click on the link if ya wana read the story..
Posted at 8/3/2004 6:05:50 pm by imperfect
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Sunday, August 01, 2004
sooo sad.. read a story.. love story.. its real touching.. v.v niceee.. i cried lorz.. believe those who read it wil oso cry.. haizz..
Posted at 8/1/2004 2:26:33 pm by imperfect
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Posted at 8/1/2004 11:44:51 am by imperfect
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